Stronger

Had been leaving house for 7 years..
was talking to chicken last nite bout this..
Since form 1 i was leaving home to go ipoh study..
Parents were far far away from me..
for a 13years old gal, what can she do?
she has nothing, only has a table, a chair, a wardrobe, a bed and a radio in her bedroom..
and a bicycle..
she has no handphone..
she miss home,
she miss siblings,
she miss frens,
she miss parents..
she cant call, coz aunty will nag..
everynight waiting for parents' call although they just talk not more than 2 minutes..
but this maintain till now..7 years edi, my parents still call me every night!
yes,i should feel blessed enough..
but for a teenager, she did not think maturely, she thought her parents don't love her..
she started to run away from school,
run away from aunty's hse..
she needs attentions!
she regreted at last,
once she run away from school and get caught by school,
her parents were informed, and they rush to Ipoh and searched for this silly girl..
They cried, they asked why are you so childish..
why are you so selfish..
i wonder now, wasn't the gal noe the parents did all this just for her to get better education?
stupid silly girl..
after 2 years staying with aunty,
parents keep getting complain from aunty..
and the parents couldn't bear with it anymore..
the parents bought a house for this gal and since her younger brother was 13 soon..
these two naughty things have a house..!
but they have their own lives..
bring own frens back to home and party..
they don't even bother each others..
it's sound free, happening and happie,rite?
but this gal loved to stay back in school til 7pm everyday
coz she doesn't want to be alone in home..
she wants to be with her frens..
by looking at her fren's parents fetching them back,she felt empty..
she wondered, when will her parents do the same?
yaya, bus driver is ur parents..
xD
nobody waiting her home..
no one cares whether she comes home anot..
nobody doing house chores for her,
nobody cook dinner for her..
perhaps there is...
someone prepared dinner for her..
yea! the hawkers...xD
that time onwards,
friends are her family members..
she loves her frens alot alot..
her frens wondered why this girl's mood can be affected by some simple stupid words from her fren's mouth..
yea,my frens, now u know why...
but when she's come to form 4,
she started to think bout her future,
she struggle hard in her studies to cover back her previous failure..
she did it..although she did not get the extreme good results,but she did it..
she proved the teachers, she proved the one who looking down on her..
since that time,she promised,she swore that she'll never waste her parent's effort,
she'll never want to dissapointed them..
when comes to college time,
again,she needs to adapt her new life..
staying with the one she's not close with..
have to act strong but tears dropped when she showered..
low confidence because of the previous failures..
she is a loner in college..
but luckily there's still some friendly ones come and approached her..
when she graduated from college,
she needs to search for uni..
but there's no one she can rely on,
noone giving her advices,guides and helps..
she did everything alone..
from apply uni to paying fees..
travel from ipoh to KL times in a month by bus..
parents just not too worry bout this girl..
they tot she is strong..
yea..she has to be...
she has to appreciate this faith..
but there's a sorrow which is she never can be like others girl close with daddy, rely on mommy which free from worries bout what she has to eat tonite..
yes,u can definitely say she still has friends,
but friends do have family members as company..
she just has to be strong..
not to over depend on anyone..
yes, I have to be strong..
=)