NOT READY

Slowly,i am getting lost..
I am tired with the way i live with..
I start to misinterpret within real and fake..
Who is treating u good or they are just ambushing their aggressiveness?
Have to accept the norms of life which i am not really get ready yet...
There's always no true friend,true relationships..besides families..
20 years old,
is a time to enjoy uni life and getting attached with society..
I AM NOT READY!
Exam, is always not a problem for me..
I'll never cry for my lousy result and stress for it..
but i started to..
I hate this feeling..
I hate to put expectation on my own..
I hate comparison..
I hate....
I am tired..
I don't feel like study..
But i know i have to..
For the sake of family and future..
Please give me confidence that i can go through this all..
I am confusing..confuse that whether I am stress or not..
If i stress i should start study..
why still i can like nothing happen?
If I am not stress,
why still i feel like this..
IMU,you changed me,definitely...
I couldn't find back the original me anymore...